What Excuse Do You Have - for not Living the Life You Desired?

 

Are you in a storm today?

Does your own experiences tears away at your feet?

Do you feel like your future is been taken away from you-filling you with deep fear and dark despondency?

Do you think someone is the cause of your misfortune? 

Are you suspecting your parents? Your siblings? or Your mate?

Do you think your failures are resulting from your poor background? poor education? or a health challenge?

Wait until I challenge your thinking... with the life story of Esther - a well respected and responsible citizen of Nigeria. She survived what many might view as the impossible, and she came out strong to tell her story.

Her story is a prime example of how to survive any kind of hardship.

Do you think you are the only one going through hell? Every one has a story lines to tell, what differs is "how you allow the storms to get at you."
You don't need to kill yourself for what is happening to you, learn from the numerous hard times on this story, grow and evolve.

HERE ARE 11 LIFE STRUGGLES THAT WERE MEANT TO MAR ME - BUT MADE ME 

(as told by Esther C.)

1. POOR BACKGROUND:

I grew from a humble beginning. I mean from a poor background. I grew up in the slum; shanty houses with leaking roofs, a highly populated rural residential area consisting mostly of closely packed, decrepit housing units in a situation of deteriorated infrastructure inhabited primarily by impoverished folks. 

The housing quality was low and living conditions were poor. Lacked reliable sanitation services, supply of clean water, reliable electricity, law enforcement, and other basic services. I hawked satchet water and KUNU in streets. These were meant to affect me intricately and get me wild and never comporting but I got calmer instead.

2. POOR EDUCATION:

I had not the best of education. In fact, my primary school fees worth #50 till I got into high school where I paid #2500 per term. I went to a random school where literature was not tutored and the system of education, very poor. Africa has the highest rates of educational exclusion in the world. Pathetic!

3. BOKO HARAM:

I didn't attend SS3, I stopped at SS2 because of the insurgents' attacks in the Northern part of Nigeria where I was born. My family and I relocated to the Eastern Nigeria for safety.

4. LOST DAD:

I started earning and catering for myself at the age of 16. I gave my life to Jesus at the age of 13 but my faith in God hooked a bit when I lost my Dad during my first attempt of writing WAEC. A paralyzed fear was driven deep into my heart. Gripped in fear, I wondered how my life would play out without a father. The manner in which he died broke me. I still fill the pain. I got angry with God for letting him die when I needed him.
I was devastated and MAD. I CRIED, I SAID “I CRIED, WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER AND STRUGGLE?” I kept asking God.

5. DEPRESSION:

I fell into chronic episodes of DEPRESSION and ANXIETY as I am very introverted and at risk of having such thoughts. This led to my attempt of committing suicide at different occasions. Depression caused me a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest, affecting how I felt, my thoughts and behaviour which led to a variety of emotional and physical problems for me. I had trouble doing normal day-to-day activities, and sometimes felt as if life wasn't worth living. I went back to my shell, morning till night, I was all alone in the dark.

This led to me falling into PORNOGRAPHY FOR SOLACE.

6. PORNOGRAPHY:

I struggled with pornography. I surfed the porn hub, yet I felt empty and gone. Watching pornography interfered with my normal daily behavior and responsibilities.
More time spent watching pornography, or searching for more stimulating types of pornography. There was a sense of emotional distress, and feeling of withdrawal.

7. MASTURBATION:

Since all I did was to circulate my heart with porn, as a teen. I fail into masturbation. I HATED IT but found myself doing it over and over again. I could not share it with anyone. I couldn't help myself get healed until I met God again at a youth convention. Jesus came and my life changed. I became passionate about God, youths and teenagers whom I am sure are struggling from any of my experiences. I vowed to be a VOICE. Thus, I intentionally write on sexual purity, life struggle, youthful lust in order to stand and inspire the weak hearted.

Do you wonder why I'm not ashamed to share these lines with you? I am not ashamed to share my stories or truths, because I went through it to learn and Inspire others. I will make an article on Pornography and masturbation, how to cut out. Anticipate!

8. HEALTH CHALLENGES:

At my third attempt of WAEC, I fought with the beast of the reed. I was to write English language that morning, when my Tommy protruded and blackened, painful pains that I couldn't bear. I lost my breath, I fainted. So I was told. Appendix that never gave prior signals had ruptured in my Tommy for God knows how many days, leaving my Tommy with pores. I needed to undergo surgery to live again. I needed to be pointed with the edge of knife, cut with sharp sides of scissors, stitched like a clothing material to live again. I needed to fall into the cold hands of death for hours, hungered for days, thirsty for days to live again. My body was cut open, inside poked, and skin peeled. All these were necessary medically to make a dead man live again.

9. ACADEMIC FAILURES:

I wrote WAEC FOUR TIMES despite my smartness, intelligence and reading ability. I told myself I would not cheat in the exam hall, I was force to write each of these WAEC in a secluded environ alone because I refused to engage in exam malpractice. ADMISSION BLOCKED- I struggled to gain admission into the university. Most of my mates were hoping to finalize while I was home struggling to be admitted. It was painful.

10. GHASTLY ROAD ACCIDENT:

I got involved in a ghastly road accident that would have claimed my life, my mom and two sisters. I spent Christmas, New year and month in the hospital in hot tears. 
Account balance wiped in the hospital. I saw my sister go through different surgeries to get better.

11. MISUNDERSTOOD:

In my passion for writing, impacting for youths and being a VOICE, I started writing a documentary titled DAZED ATTRACTION” where I wrote true life stories and fictions of youthful journey and experiences shared with me secretly so others could get inspiration. An except of this documentary surfaced online for future publication, but I was misunderstood and dissolved.
Thank God for family; The Charles, true Friends who stayed by me, looked through my pale eyes and whispered “YOU ARE A GREAT WOMAN, NO WATER CAN SWALLOW YOU.”

Number 11 struggle pushed me out of my comfort zone to use the documentary and other writings to make ends meet. 
I started earning massively from writing.

Kai! I have heard tears in this my life. I have cried to stupor.

Life has taught me so much that I can never forget. I was tossed about in the roar of STORMS.

But I have come to learn through these difficulties and awful experiences that God does the good things through the hard times of life.

What about you? 

What Exactly is Your Reason for not Living the Life You Desired? 

My struggles in this life are series of tridal waves, each one bigger than the next.
These STORMS/AWFUL EXPERIENCES were meant to make me very useless in life but it made Me PHENOMENAL AND INSPIRATIONAL.

Listen, God let us live in little bubbles to hedge us from all pain. Nobody said the road would be easy, God never promised us a smooth transition.

James said "Count it all joy my brothers when you meet trials of various kinds.”

Jesus said "In the world you will have tribulations.”

Are you in a storm today?
Does your own experiences tears away at your faith in God, filling you with deep fear and dark despondency?
Do you think you are the only one going through hell?
Every one has a story lines to tell, what differs is "how you allow the storms to get at you."
You don't need to kill yourself for what is happening to you, learn from the numerous hard times, grow and evolve.

Sweetheart, God is right at your side.
Just understand that the struggle along the way are only meant to shape you for future purposes.
If I hadn't these experiences, there would be no STRONG me. You would not have been inspired with any of my works.

God is in that storm with you.
He has beautified me uniquely. 
I have no regret because those experiences turned out to be the reason behind my LAUGHTER.

Got value? Share, like, drop your own experiences in comment section. Someone would get inspired.

Thanks for reading to the end.